I’m not sure when I realized it, but at some point when I was a teenager I realized my left breast was bigger than my right one and I became horribly self-conscious about it. I was heavier then, so their size was bigger and the difference was more exaggerated.
I wore really baggy clothes partly to hide my imperfection. It wasn’t until my Peruvian sisters did an intervention when we lived together in Madrid that I changed my style and started wearing clothes that actually fit. (Gracias, hermanitas!)
Now I don’t care at all about this imperfection.
As I took the night bus from Cuenca, Ecuador to Mancora, Peru, I was thinking about an email I sent out a few days earlier. I sent out some solicitations to write reviews for hostels and hotels in Mancora in exchange for a free place to stay for three nights.
One of the hotels wrote back and asked how many people the reservation should be for. I’m not sure what made me say it, but I said in Spanish “only one, but my heart is big enough for two people!”
They never replied.
Maybe they thought I was weird or maybe they didn’t have any single rooms available. Either way, no problem. I made an arrangement with another hotel.
But it was along this train of thought somewhere in Northern Peru around 3am that it hit me. I’m not sure why it never occurred to me before, but I’m glad it finally did.
My left breast is bigger than my right one because it needs to accommodate my big heart!
Of course, in my head it was more like “Big boob, big heart.” And no, my heart is not biologically enlarged or anything. Just metaphorically-speaking.
It made me think of all the people I know who are too hard on themselves, or see faults where no one else does. Maybe a perceived fault or imperfection is actually a superpower in disguise.
Next time you are upset about something, try and see why it might be so and think outside the box a bit. You might find your initial anger giving way to an awesome, makes-sense-to-you reason for it. Positivity is the key to unlocking these alternate explanations!